Dying to break no contact

It's been 3-4 months.

I can't believe I feel this way.

I can't believe she doesn't.

I'm not going to do it, but man, fuck!

She already blocked me before I could even break no contact and I haven't even tried to since it ended.

And even moreso I don't because I was blocked. But she left available on socials.

Fuck.

Why doesn't she just fucking measage me already. She's going to know if she hasn't already that she literally ducked up.