Something is wrong with me but I can't figure out what

For a long time now I've felt like I'm alone and am incapable of holding onto any form of relationship. Everyone I know feels so foreign to me like I know they are my friends and loved ones but I just feel so separated from them. I want to talk to them but I find I'm unable to say anything and I also feel like if I reach out to them I'm bothering them. Like I know they care for me too without a doubt but I just can't find a way to reach out to them without feeling like I'm burdening them. And when I do find something to say and I overcome that feeling it is superficial and doesn't lead to any kind of deeper conversation that I want. When I say deeper I don't mean like philosophically deep or anything like that just a conversation that last more than a few seconds. It just feels like I don't know how to be their friend and with my family I don't barely talk either. But the other thing is I also feel like they don't reach out to me for anything either or at least that I can tell. I don't know if its my own mind trying to victimize myself but I feel like no one ever reaches out to me to talk either. And when they rarely do I respond and once again its just another couple second conversation. I don't know if it's me, its them, or that its all in my head and this is just normal but I feel like its going to kill all of my friendships and relationships with my family if I don't change.