Does thinking "I'd become a woman with zero hesitation if I could do it quickly and painlessly" mean you're trans?

I'm just confused here. Like I'm really scared of transition. I'm scared of the physical changes, I'm scared of not being able to pass because I have a really masculine face and features. But like...if I 100% knew it'd work I'd take the swap in a second. I've been experimenting with my presentation lately and mostly I just feel like I look weird trying to wear a skirt or whatever.