Stockpiled and now regretting it

Tirz has been so helpful so far to deal with systemic inflammation and continual weight gain/food cravings from prescriptions to manage chronic conditions. It’s given me hope that the scale will stop going up every week.

After starting meds in 2020 and developing severe endometriosis symptoms, I’ve gained 70-80 pounds since then. The only relief I’ve gotten before tirz was just after my first endo surgery when my body’s inflammation disappeared and it went back to normal and I lost 13 pounds and kept it off without trying. That extra mobility with the freedom from inflammation and the weight felt amazing, it was a joy to be in my body again, but unfortunately it only lasted 4 months. (This isn’t unusual for bad endo cases) I’ve tried Noom and it kinda helped for a bit, tried intuitive eating which doesn’t work great on a super restricted diet.

Tirz has given me hope that even with chronic pain, I might reduce inflammation and get some mobility and energy back. It’s been 4 shots and already a difference.

I started stockpiling before the inauguration and now I’m worried about the economy and job security as my organization relies on some of the blocked funding. I feel like an idiot for not stockpiling cash instead. I only have $1k in my emergency fund.

I dunno what I’m looking for here… maybe understanding that this was a financial decision based on hope and desperation and maybe not very smart or based in my financial reality. I just have this vision of me abandoning my apartment with a vial container in tow.

I am holding on hope for job stability, creating backup plans if it doesn’t happen. But feeling kinda nauseous that i dropped the $$ to stockpile.

(I did not vote for this so please don’t leopards eat my face me)

Edit: thank you all so much for the responses. i feel more okay about my decision, even with all the uncertainty. It’s over and done so I can’t take it back, it was for my health and that is important, and agree with the folks who said its easier to get a job when you weigh less. And for everyone that is putting good vibes out into the universe with your hope and thoughtfulness, please keep doing it!