This team is taking a mental toll on me

I have watched almost every single suns game for the past 15+ years and I can say for certain this is the lowest I have felt as a supporter of this team. Even in 2018-19 when we only won 19 games I felt more optimistic than I do now. I love having an aggressive owner but Ishbia was definitely too trigger happy in his first year and it looks like we will paying the consequences for quite a while unless another team bails us out of the beal contract. I didn't even really want Butler on the Suns that much but missing out on him solely because no other team would take on Beal/he wouldn't waive his NTC was a big reality check for the situation we are in now. I think the part that makes me the most depressed is that one of the only ways to move forward is to trade KD while we still can get decent value out of him and hopefully convince Book to stay through a re-tool. KD was the first real super star that requested to come here since I've been supporting the Suns and it just hurts so bad to see that his time here has been mostly unsuccessful. I know I'm probably just being a massive doomer and things can definitely get better but the landscape looks so bleak right now especially in a western conference that is loaded with young talent. Depending on how things go tomorrow I will probably take a break from watching this team. I just hope James and Bartlestein don't sit on their hands and let deadline pass.