how do i stop hating men?

i hate men so much i dont wear make up because i dont want them to ever see me pretty like who are you? other than that i dont wear make up because why should i look pretty and men can stink and sound dumb all the time??? every time i speak to one it ends up me thinking i never met anyone dumber before. the conversation always ends with “yeah… but yeah…” on their side because they are so dumb. everytime i speak to them the sparkle in their eyes vanishes. like is it me? or is it me putting you in your place instead of laughing stupidly? there are some i can kinda speak to (literally 2) that dont make me off myself after hearing them. its not like im rude to them i speak normal to them. i just dont see how i will ever get married if all of them are so… stupid? no intelligence or opinions they made themselves just stolen beliefs and being ugly. and the 4B movement is so behind. i am religious thats the only reason why im not radical because i am not allowed to be radical in anything. people around me like close friends and family tell me i should probably see a therapist bc not all men are like that its just the men in my life that ruined my view and thats the reason why i think they are useless (not my father tho. love my father🤭). i never had a relationship and i dont see how i can have one. i already hate my future husband. how do i stop this. i just dont like men to be around me or to be close to me. if your advice is maybe you are gay the answer is no. i wish i was just gaslighting myself but im not. i only like men when im ovulating, well i dont like them im just feral? but then again PROUD VIRGINNN!!! anyways sometimes i wish i craved male validation just to see the hype, but i just see it as utterly trash and poop. why would i want poop all over me? thats male validation to me. anyways sad story short a woman needs to get married one day to move out of her house. i cant do this anymore. how do i change my views? i feel like this will ruin my life one day. HELPPP!