Unemployed over a year. No hope left

I woke up this morning at 3am and realized I have lost all hope.

I interviewed for a role 6 weeks ago. The interview team and recruiter both told me the selection process would go very fast and to expect to hear something the following week.

I followed up and was ghosted, so I assumed I was not selected.

Still felt all the disappointment when I finally received the rejection email yesterday.

I am generally a happy person, high energy, and try to see the positive in everything.

But I realized I have no hope left, which has made me feel empty and numb.