I’m down 30k I’m feeling numb

I knew better every time and I keep trying to chase! And when I do make it back I didn’t cash out and lost it all. I knew better but I couldn’t control myself! I’m about to self exclude indefinitely every single app. Fuck man I had 80k and it’s all gone I’m at 54k now I let my family down my friends down and even myself down. If I keep going it will be the death of me. I’m 28 years old I can’t believe it guys