Totoo bang your medschool makes a difference in practice?

YL1 in HSI here. Wanted to transfer medical schools ever since enrollment but sabi ko, I have to check muna what it's like here. So I did, and to the best of my ability. I forged some solid friendships, did some volunteer work, and tried my best to have life outside of acads. I like the physical environment here, and totoo nga na okay ang mental health mo dito. Maraming free time dahil maluwag ang schedule.

But after 6+ months of studying in HSI, I can say na it's not for me. Feel ko nakukulangan pa rin ako, despite all that good stuff. I don't feel challenged that much. My scores in exams are great without having to break that much sweat (please don't get me wrong, I don't mean to brag). Kahit namamaximize ko ang stay ko dito, there's still this feeling inside me telling me that I'm better off somewhere.

I really want to be a doctor, and a great one too. But I feel like yung opportunities na binibigay ng HSI, sobrang onti compared sa ibang medical schools. Limited ang alumni connections compared to other schools in the Metro. HSI is also not really known for its board performance (not that it matters to me) and teaching style, mapa-theoreticals man or practicals (this one matters).

If you're wondering why I'm even in HSI in the first place — I'm a BS HumBio student. Kaya wala akong choice but to finish 1st year here to get my degree. Yes, kaya naman isagad until 4th year, pero unti-unting nawawala ang motivation ko to continue my studies here. Sinasabi nga nila na wala naman sa school yan, nasa tao yan. Pero I feel like nililimit ko ang potential ko by staying here. I want to be challenged further because that's what makes me grow.

So I've applied to other medical schools. But even if I get in, the chances of me continuing are low because I still don't have my diploma by the time enrollment starts. With that, I'm considering taking a gap year just to be in sync with the academic calendar.

But maybe, just maybe, hindi ko pa nakikita what makes HSI special and worth my time.

I am very goal-oriented, and I am dedicated to being the best I could be.

But right now, I am so so so lost. Any decision I make will be so heavy, so any thoughts would be appreciated. Like, (1) what makes HSI worth it, or (2) if totoo nga bang your medschool impacts your career. Any help given outside the scope of these questions would also be nice. Thank you so much 🥹