Sexual anhedonia in marriage no

(Sorry, somehow the title got messed up and I can’t fix it.)

My husband and I have been married for over 15 years, and we have 2 kids. He’s a great guy, a great dad, and is really trying to keep the spark alive. The issue is, I’ve come to accept that I hate sex. I’ve been struggling with a total lack of sexual pleasure pretty much forever, but only in the last year or so did I learn about anhedonia. In the one hand, it’s almost nice to finally have a word for it. On the other hand, obviously it majorly sucks. It makes sex a chore, and leaves me with a lot of bitterness and anger and jealousy. Like, this is supposedly the best thing ever. People use the word “orgasmic” to describe things that are unbelievably amazing. And he gets it every time, and always has since the very first time, while I’ve gotten nothing and probably never will. It’s driven a wedge between us, usually unspoken but always there. I know we won’t get divorced, but I don’t know how to get past this. I do it every so often, out of guilt, but it’s clear that he can tell, which kills it. I don’t know what to do.

Tl;dr: how do you save a marriage when you hate sex?