Cold turkey

Hey my fellow sedated psychos! Do I have a pickle. I don’t have a choice but to stop taking my 20mg dose. I got on it maybe 2 years ago for depression and it has helped a lot. Like I’m still sad all of the time but at least I can hold a train of thought and don’t cry all day. Anyways, I am stopping cold turkey… This would b bc I don’t have health insurance anymore yikes but welcome to America. I legit, don’t have a choice. I’m also on 50g of lamotrigine for mood regulation since 2 months. Hence, I am stopping both as of today. I am going abroad for vacation in 2 days and I’m scared for my body like what if I go insane or get those dreaded brain zaps or something bad happens. Any experience w this? Thank you and much love to you all