I'm disgusted

This is LITERALLY so fucked like ngl but at this point even if I don't get the diploma I won't be as sad as I should have been if none of this happened. I just feel like this organization literally lost ALL its value.. i'm so sorry it just feels like i'm in a toxic relationship with a guy, then he starts acting disgustingly disrespectful... Like even if I wanted him so bad at the beginning now I just feel disgusted by him ( idk from where tf I got this example but it's genuinely how I feel about the IB rn)