After 15 foster dogs, I can't foster anymore. Feeling sad.

I have loved my foster journey of the past few years. I have fostered seniors, young dogs, and everything in between. I was fostering dog #13 for 3 months before adopting her. They wanted to euthanize her (because of space) and I could not let that happen. I am so glad I adopted her though, because she has brought a lot of joy in my life.

She was 8 when I adopted her and is 9 now. She had some dog aggression that was classified as "scared aggression." I took her to a training class and it helped somewhat. I have fostered 2 dogs since adopting her, and she wasn't a fan of the dogs, but simply ignored them. I thought it was a really good experience for her.

I had a meet-and-greet with a dog today and she was very aggressive towards him. Somehow she slipped out of her leash (I should have had her harness on and double check) to attack him. She quickly took correction when I screamed at her, but it made me, and the shelter, realize that it might be impossible to continue fostering when I have a reactive dog.

Now the dog I was supposed to foster is going to have to go back to the shelter, and has severe anxiety (the other foster parents can't keep him right now). I am desperately looking for a backup, but I feel like such a failure. I caused this dog to go back to the shelter, and now I have to come to terms with not fostering anymore. It really gave my life a lot of meaning.