life is over

Hello, I’m 25 years old. I don’t have any friends, I’ve never worked, and depression is consuming me entirely. I don’t leave the house, and I’m not studying either, because I dropped out of high school when I was 17 due to bullying. I’ve lost my entire adolescence, and now I’m losing my adulthood. Life feels over for me. I’m still here because I’m too afraid to take my own life. And on top of that I'm a closet lesbian and my family expects me to have a boyfriend at some point. My life is completely over and it's all my fault

(Sorry if something doesn't make sense, English is not my first language)