Does anyone else feel that they have an inherently 'bad' nature?

Just asking, in case anyone's experience is similar. Due to how I experience my condition, I have extreme difficulty with understanding and feeling empathy, loss, or understanding people around me and how they feel. I've come to terms with the fact that I don't have any real relationships, and that I adjust and build versions of myself to fit others, that I use smiles and compliments just to get what I want, because I never will know how they feel. I mean, I don't LIKE it, like, I take pleasure in the moment with whatever I get from the interaction, but I would give anything to get to feel the other side. I've come to terms though, that due to my Aspergers, I will never be able to be a 'good person.' Has anyone had a similar experience?