Sadness and frustration

This is a little vent I need to get out.

I'm asexual and have known for some years now. I've never told my family, because they're not necessarily against LGBTQ+ people as long as they aren't part of the family. So I've decided for myself to stay closeted as to avoid arguments, because generally I do like them a lot. This has been working out quite well. No arguments, no rude questions, everything was good.

Until last summer when my sister came out as trans and it's been a hell of a ride with lots of passive-aggressive behaviour from our family and trying to convince her into stopping transitioning.

Everytime this subject comes up, the main argument against her is: "A rainbow person doesn't fit into the family" and it hurts hearing that. It just pushes me more and more into the closet and it's so frustrating to just sit there and listen to that bs.

It makes me really sad, because I feel like I can't open up to them without losing my good connection to them. My friends have been great about me being asexual, they're extremely supportive but I wish I would feel the same about my family. I'm also sorry for my sister, for she has to deal with those comments whenever the family's getting together.

All in all, being in the closet right now is frustrating but also safer than being out and that's making me sad. It's such a shame asexuality is still viewed as something made up and weird when in reality I simply don't feel like having sex. No further big bad feelings.