I want it to end..wait no I don’t.

VENT; Met my AP online in 2021 we are LD almost 12 hours apart. He’s in town now to see me. I saw him for the first time in 2 years today. We’ve broken contact multiple times (hi it’s me I’m the problem 👋) due to my wanting to not talk anymore. I blocked him a year ago he sought me out and found me even thought I thought my social media was lock tight. I saw him today and plan on spending the day with him tomorrow. Seeing him brought back so many feelings and emotions I know when he leaves to go back home tomorrow I’ll have that same sinking feeling I have every time he leaves to go home to her and his family. Damn the green eyed monster got me good with this one.

Just looking to share/vent. Obviously I have no one to talk to in real life about this. We’re both married with kids so we are both big secrets in each others lives (which is a whole nother part that sucks.)

Throwaway account.