Who here has a life altering inability to get moving?

35/F

I have zero ambition. Zero drive. I’m medicated which helps a little, also antidepressant. I also have chronic pain for the last 10 years. After I had my first child my spine decided it was going to destroy itself so Im always in some degree of pain.

I have terrible anxiety that stems from my inability and to get my ass in gear. I will literally sit all day thinking about what I need to do and worry myself into a panic~ yet I still can’t get moving. This is a daily cycle.

My husband has had it. My kids hardly ask me to do stuff anymore. I WANT to! It seems like I’m frozen. It’s like even with medication I don’t have any dopamine. There is no reward system.

I’ve tried every antidepressant, adhd med, eating well, running, TMS therapy that worked for a couple of weeks, I felt like I had escaped my prison of a mind!!! It was awesome!! But it didn’t last… I’ve done ketamine therapy, but it did t do anything for me so I stopped going. I’ve done it all.

Anyone else have a super hard time finding the energy or ambition to get daily tasks done or ruminates instead of taking action? It’s so frustrating :( Anyone able to overcome this part of adhd? What helps? Anyone else struggle?