I am feeling hella lonely

Hello, Here is my vent. First time posting. Not really sure what to expect out of this. But here goes it.

I’m a 28 year old married father and my home life is 100% great. There is no issues internally in our house. My daughter is 18 months and is doing great and my wife and I have never been better. Life there is great

But for me where I really sink into a sad hole is friendships.

You see my best friend in the whole world moved to California 3 years ago to be with his girlfriend who if I’m being honest. I hate with every being of my body. But he loves her and so I support him 100%.

And when he left. So did my social life.

When we were not working. We would hang out every day all day. Until it was time to wind down. Then we would go home and play video games until it was time to go to bed.

But now that he is gone I go to work. I come home. And when the daughter and wife go to bed I play video games by myself. And idk. I just miss my friend. But he’s doing great things and is always busy I don’t wanna bother him.

Yes there are other people in our circle of friends but I just don’t have that same connection with any of them. And I just miss it.

I want a friend with who I can see daily even if it’s 5 minutes. I want a friend who will play every game I and he wants to try every night. I just don’t like feeling lonely.

My wife made a comment a couple of days ago and it stuck with me. We were out to eat and someone from college came up to me and asked how life had been. And after that my wife said “you’ve always been the most social person I know”.

Little does she know I’m fighting demons inside of me of just not having that “best friend” anymore.

Thanks for listening to my vent.

Have a good night!