rant : ))

hello po parant laangg hehejwha HIII im a shs student (g11) and lately I've been feeling so overwhelmed and pressured. last semester I was kinda doing well. Was still adjusting of course and getting to know my classmates. I made some friends. I have some friends naman pero I feel like we're only friends just because we're in a same classroom and just because they're my classmates. we never really shared or talked about anything personal so I don't really have the courage to tell them Im having a hard time with my studies. I have a good relationship naman with my parents and siblings pero hindi ung type na kaya kong mag open up sakanila.

I live with my parents and we kinda live far from manila. a 2 hours commute since nag cocommute lang ako pumasok. And I think thats 1 factor why im losing the motivation to study. pasok-aral- uwi-kain-aral-tulog same routine all thee time. hindi naman kami f2f everyday pero nakaka pagod parin. kapag online class naman same routine lang rin, nakakapagod makinig sa mga profs kapag nakaupo lang and it is not my usual way of studying kasi hindi talaga ako magaling kapag online study.

Ever since the 2nd semester started parang wala talaga akong gana ayokong pumasok, ayokong mag aral. as in wala. Its like I want to give up na talaga. I even thought of mag pa LOA😅 ( idk if thats possible or applicable sa shs) sobrang na dadrain ako. And I dont really feel very included sa class namin😅 may isang malaking friendgroup sa class namin like kalahati ng class namin is nasa iisang FG and I envy them. How do they get along so well? Back in jhs I was very friendly. I have a lot of friends. Pero natest talaga ung social skills ko ever since pumasok ako sa UST, I've thought about going to the counseling office as well. I honestly dont know what to do anymore. I don't want to disappoint my parents since they gave me everything and worked hard for our family. thankyou for reading this. And if may nakaka experience rin ng ganto. Please keep moving forward and take care of yourself. sana kayanin🤍