Anyone else scared of them coming home?

I realize that probably sounds like I'm scared of him so definitely NOT that. I'm scared he will come home and just be different. We've know each other for a year and half and I'm absolutely in love with him. And he loves me. But. What if? He's coming out soon, next month, and I thought I would be ecstatic that it's getting closer but I'm scared the world will get between us. Other women. Friends. Freedom. Just anything. Is this normal? Anyone else?