My curiosity's gonna kill me one day.

(18M)I've always wandered how it'd feel to get cut. Thoughts like, how'd feel if I got cut in my forearms, chest, back, etc.

I even tried cutting my left wrist with divider when I was in class 6. I still remember, at that time one guy from class 9 had cut their wrist and everyone were talking about it. It was Nepali period and our Nepali miss was busy checking copies and a thought came in my mind "kasto feel hunxa hola/dukhxa ki dukhdaina hola". At that moment curiosity took over my brain and I couldn't resist myself, I opened my geometry box and tried to cut myself with divider, but one of my benchmate saw and threatened me that he'd say it to miss, so I stopped and cutting and made a very lame excuse(had to give him 50rs ko dairymilk the next day).

Thankfully, the divider wasn't so sharp and I got away with just some minor scratch witch healed pretty quickly and there's no scar left.

But nowadays, I'm starting to have concerns over my curiosity. Hijo aago tapdai gareko bela haat ekxin samma tyai rakhi rakhey kasto feel hunxa hola vanera.

Ngl, this kind of curiosity will kill me one day.