I hate you God.

I hate you for putting me in an environment where my narcissism prospered and made me a horrible person even though I never wanted to hurt anyone. Life would have been so much better if I wasn't a narcissist. Narcissism has made it difficult for me to have a healthy outlook on life. I get insecure when someone performs better than me at something I love doing, I always have a hard time celebrating my friend's success, I ruined a great friendship of 12 years of mine because of that, everyday is a battle for me. I love and hate myself at the same time. I want to be the center of attention all the time. I want people to succeed but not more than me. On top of that I have OCD since I was 7 years old. At last I want to say, F*ck you for doing this to me.