An answer to one of my most dreaded questions

I have made my transition public a couple days ago; I came out at my new job but haven't really stood my ground because I'm still afraid of just... Being me. Today I said "f*ck it" and REALLY tried looking to par; Woke up early to take care of my hair and help it be wonderfully curly, make-up (nothing too elaborate because I'm still going to work, just foundation, lipstick, mascara and blush), and asked one of my coworkers for feminine jeans because until now my only available pant to work was from my old suit.

However, after said coworker lended me the pants, I started to panic. I need to change, but I work as a saleswoman in a mall, I can only use the public bathroom. Then, the question came; Which one? I physically refuse to enter the men's bathroom, I already did the past couple days because I didn't feel like I passed and it was horrible, but... Can I enter the women's bathroom? Do I actually pass? And... While I just awkwardly stood in the corridor mustering the courage to do something, anything, the cleaning lady came out of the women's bathroom, looked me in my face and said "Oh, you can come in, miss, I've already finished." (roughly translated because I'm from Brasil)

I WANT TO CRY SO MUCH BUT I'LL RUIN MY MAKE-UUUUUUP I CAN'T BELIEVE IT HAPPENED! I went in there and changed, and my GOD it gave me the boost I needed to get through the day. I'm just waiting for my shift to start with a big smile on my face for now, couldn't wait to write this out.