I failed again

I have gone two weeks without gambling, I said to myself anytime I feel the urge, I have to reflect the other day we're I lost all my money whiles in abroad, the pain, the gulf, anxiety, panic. And depression,

So therefore I will dare not to gamble, I woke up feeling great, and I don't know what came over me, didn't think to come here first at least to read other stories to help me but rather deposited money into a betting site I haven't blocked yet, hmm now I lost all my money, I don't know how I will survive this time after borrowing so much money, payday is the 31st I will still be in Abroad, I have bills to pay aswel as Debts, please how do I cope, anyone have a better idea to deal with this. Thanks.