I'm scared, please help.

I have had Reflux for 5 years. I take Gaviscon, made lifestyle changes etc.

Over the last few months it got better until I started tapering off of Escitaloprame (Lexapro). It was as bad as 5 years ago so I finally tried an PPI.

Took Omeprazole, first 40 mg then 20. After almost two weeks I had to stop because I got stomach aches that were getting worse every day.

After one week off of it I'm getting Reflux again. I don't know what to do. I'm scared that I won't find relief now since PPI is my last resort.

Does anyone have any advice? I feel so hopeless and honestly passively suicidal. Is taking only 10 mg worth a shot?

Also I can't take Pantoprazol because I'm unable to swallow tablets or pills.