Accidentally took meth, gaining so much empathy for meth heads

I bought some “pressed adderall” b974 online and did not do my research before hand. Turns out they are actually just meth and caffeine. I started by taking one orally to get some homework done and was unimpressed by the results. Around an hour later I decided to snort half of a pill and also didn’t feel to crazy of an affect. At this point I thought it was some weaker version of adderall so I decided to snort a few pills over the next few hours. I start to slowly realize my inability to stop snorting more. I wasn’t too high at this point despite having snorted around 150 mg of the pills. I decided to do some research and for the next two hours I had a meth fueled research where I repeatedly had to prove to myself they were meth (I was tweaking since I sold some to a person, immediately hit them up when I first started to have my suspicions and gave him a refund, luckily he hadn’t taken any yet so he was good) At this point I didn’t feel high at all and assumed if there was meth it was a tiny amount and continued to snort more. Eventually my friend invited me to go for a smoke and after 3 failed attempts of leaving my dorm and going back to snort another pill I finally started the journey to my friends dorm where I puked 3 times on the way. I admitted to them I got laced and asked them to come back with me to make sure I threw them away. I immediately regretted this and started to constantly try to assure them that I wouldn’t go back and do more (I was fully planing to) On the drive back to my dorm I was thinking of all the ways I could get some before my friend through it away, I even suggested throwing it in the dumpster (which I would of dug in later) it’s insane, it’s so fucking addictive. I begged my friend for a single pill before he disposed of it. I would have payed 300 for half of a b974. I would give anything right now for another bump, it’s terrifying. I completely understand why meth heads do crazy shit for just a bit of meth. I could totally see myself betraying my friends, it already made me lie to them, to get a bit more. I think I’m genuinely a person prone to addiction and I’m definitely addicted to other drugs like weed and nicotine but it’s completely different. If nicotine is like a 3 on a fien scale these fake addys are like a 10. The meth high isn’t even that good, the fiening and the high are like seperate, I’m not snorting more to get higher but to fulfill some insatiable need. I need to never do this again, fuck this, fuck meth, I’m so sorry for anyone struggling with meth addiction it’s gotta be literally so hard. I’m sure smoking meth has got to be even more addicting. Can’t even comprehend this. I’m gonna go search the floor for any I spilled earlier now, good luck o7 (also like any idea how long this will last? Is snorting have a similar timeline to snorting? I can’t find any data online) love you~