Barely hanging on

Since me and my wife separated I’ve been pretty lost out here not really knowing what or where I’m going. I know it’s pro for the best but it still hurts especially now around the holidays. I have to moved back to my hometown to stsy with my parents to get back on my feet and I just feel like a failure. I don’t like talking about how I feel so I say I’m good but I’m not. The only reason why I’m hanging around is for my daughter and my parents because I can’t hurt them like that so I’ll just hang around idk man idk what to do