2 months being a CA-feelings

I qualified in Nov 24. It's almost 2 months since I became a CA and I have yet to feel any happiness or content. I thought it was post exam jitters or it's because I have nothing to do but I just feel miserable.

Don't get me wrong Ik I am privileged to become a CA but why do I not feel anything? I want to do nothing. It's like energy is sucked out of me. My sleep cycle is messed up because of studies and it's still not proper ( writing this at 2am). It's like the cycle will never end. It started with 10th kar lo, then 12th, then foundation, inter, college, articleship and then final. One would have thought oh it's over. No it hasn't. You realise being a CA is not enough. You need to do more and more and more and more. How much more do i have to do until I am satisfied?

Ps: I DO NOT WANT TO DISCOURAGE ANYONE PURSUING THE COURSE.