do you ever wonder what you’ve “done” to deserve what’s happened to you?

I wonder quite a lot what I did to deserve the breakup, and in the way it happened too after everything we went through together, and after everything I did for him.

I know I’m not perfect though, so I’ve spent hundreds of hours in my head since the breakup 5 months ago trying to figure out what I did to deserve this. what part of me wasn’t good enough for him, and if I could “go back” and redo our relationship, what I’d change for him to see if it would make him stay.

I just wish I had a real shot of this, but he’s never coming back.