Relapse after 1 year of breakup

The relapse today was hard. I found pictures of us when I cleaning up my photo album, photos of her that I actually had forgotten. The person who once made me feel so special and proud of myself. The person who loved me unconditionally. I had the surge to reach out to her, it was hard to resist. It really is a good thing that I deleted our chat and contact, which makes it really harder to text her. I have not had the urge to text her for a very long time, I cant even remember when was the last time I wanted to text her. Even though it has been a year since the breakup, it really feels like it only happened yesterday. In my mind right now I’m thinking of breaking our 10 months of no contact and drafting another message to send to her which makes me feel like a loser and it’s just really pathetic - I mean I don’t know what else to do because I still love her dearly.