Why do we want our BPSO back so badly?

This is a legit question, why do we want our BPSO back so badly?

They hurt us so badly by leaving us. They usually leave and cheat on us with someone us. They leave our lives in pieces.

You look on here and there’s story after story of someone taking back their BPSO, only to have them leave again down the road. Usually with kids, a home, or business involved, leaving more destruction.

Any bit of reason tells us we would be insane for taking them back. A lot of us are successful people who are successful because of making good decisions in life. Why then are we so willing to make a horrible decision to take our BPSO back?

My BPSO has destroyed me. But I’d take her back in a heartbeat, knowing it would be a horrible decision. Maybe it’s because we love them so much we are willing to take the chance. Maybe it’s because we have hope we can save them from the BP and have a normal relationship.

I’m struggling. I should be thankful it ended with only a year wasted and minimal damage (no kids or home together). But instead I’m heartbroken and trying to pick up the pieces and am struggling hard to do that.

I’m angry that I’ve allowed someone to do this to me and even angrier I still love them after all the hurt they have caused.