Those that have a love/hate relationship with a parent, especially their dad, how do you navigate it?

Asking because, who guessed it, I have a difficult relationship with my dad, even though he'd probably see it differently, since I try not to show my disdain too much.

As a child, I was quite literally daddy's little princess, he did everything for me, he was the fun dad, I adored him. As a teen, I realized my parents are human and have faults, and my dad's fault started around 2015 with him becoming more racist, hating immigrants, leaning more and more into all kinds of conspiracy theories and right propaganda, and I hated him for it.

Now I've grown up a bit more and I know, like every human, he has two sides to him, but I find it impossible to combine those parts of him in my mind into one person. He has moments where he rambles incoherently at the tv like an old man, and an hour later he gets tears in his eyes when I leave for university the next couple of weeks. And I don't see my dad becoming calmer or more balanced as he gets older, quite the opposite actually. How do I deal with this? Most of the time, I just hate being around him, but I see how it hurts him, and I know he loves his family above all, and deep down I love him too if he could just be normal for once.