Confused and empty

My Q left to go buy weed. I’m not sure how all of this is supposed to go but home life has been very uncomfortable. We’ve been operating on two separate islands. Can you smoke when you’re trying to get sober? I think he’s 12 days sober. According to the last drink I know of… I do not know his intentions with it all. But I could tell his demeanor was different tonight, giddy at the idea of getting just a little bit high. Weed was always combined with alcohol for him. And I’ve worried it’ll drawn him back in? But I suppose this is all for him to figure out not me… In solidarity, as his partner, am I not supposed to drink? I haven’t had a single drop of alcohol since this whole thing started. No alcohol in the house or a drink out in the world. Have asked friends to also comply when coming to our house. But he’s made plans to go out this weekend for a concert. Can I make plans to go out with my friends and have a drink? Or am I not supporting him then? We have two small children so I’m default at home.