Contemplating abortion…help

For context I’m 24 , my bf is 26 & we just found out about a week & a half ago that I’m pregnant. I’m about 5 & a half weeks. Definitely not planned. Before I got pregnant we talked about our preferences if an accident happened & he said he’d prefer abortion but I said I likely wouldn’t. I’m pro choice but I’ve always just been unsure about something like that for myself. Anyways fast forward to now, we’ve been together a year & a half, plan on moving in together in September & then shortly after that getting engaged and having a baby in the next 2-3 years.

But now that I’m pregnant before we moved in or got engaged I don’t know what to do. He’s been supportive but he was really bad anxiety & while he’s “onboard” I know he’d feel better if I aborted it. I’m so hormonal and wishy washy but deep down I think I want to keep it. I’ve talked to friends who’ve had abrotions n they’re fine but idk. I feel like I’m not 16, im not completely broke so I feel like it’s feasible. Not ideal would be hard but doable. We love eachother so much & in general want this but I do see how now isn’t exactly the time. But my heart is soo torn.

Work wise, I have a high stress job & travel a lot in the summer but have been looking for new jobs. My job is super secure & would never fire me but ideally id be out of there by summer if I can find something else. I make more money than him like 120k after my overtime & bonuses & he makes like 80-100k but is a personal trainer so it’s not secure like my job. We live in SF. & I’m also remote 2x a week which would help with having to pay for daycare only 2-3x per week & he can always shift clients around if need be. + his parents have offered to help, but I would never solely rely on that. I have 34k in savings & 22k in my 401k, he has around 25-30k saved but no student loans like me.

I’m scared to keep it and it be too stressful & we end up not working out. Scared about money SF is so expensive and it’s such a HUGE life change & we’re still young…

Ugh send help. I booked an abortion for Saturday in case but also an obgyn appt in a few weeks in case I keep it….