Is it worth it?

Whenever my craving for attention maxes out I usually download tinder or hinge and enjoy the attention from cismoids who think I'm a girl. But I'm almost 20 (Decrepit) and I'm still a virgin. I'm in this weird autistic retarded voluntary incel state where I don't interact with anyone with the intention of dating. Is it all over for me if I don't take the plunge? Am I being schizo? Will having physical contact for the first time in my life be good for my brain? Question questions questions